What do you want to do later in the future?
How do you see yourself 5-10 years from now?
Where will you be after this?
What life means to you?
Who are you?
It's kinda frustrating memikirkan semua pertanyaan-pertanyaan di atas. Membuat saya merasa insecure dan takut di saat yang bersamaan. Kalau mau tahu apa saja yang ngebuat saya nggak bisa tidur sampai pukul 2 pagi, lihat semua pertanyaan di atas.
I'm 19 now, and I feel like I've never done anything in my life. Bahkan saya belum mendapat jawaban untuk pertanyaan: mau jadi apa, mau ngapain, nanti mau kemana, what life means to me, and the most of all is who am I?
Who am I? Siapa saya?
Sebutkan nama, tempat tanggal lahir, usia, sekarang sedang menempuh pendidikan apa. Just it. Saya nggak pernah bisa menjelaskan lebih dari itu. I feel lost.
Jika pertanyaannya dibalik kepada kamu, bisakah kamu jelaskan kepada saya, who are you?
Breathe in, breathe out.
It's hard, sad, and kinda ironic to say this. I still don't know who will I become, what I want to do later in life, what I want to do to live this life to the fullest. I still don't get what life really mean.
Salahkah saya memilih jalan? Apakah saya salah tidak mengambil kesempatan ketika ia datang? Saya terus mengutuk-ngutuk diri sepanjang tahun. Mempertanyakan semua hal yang seharusnya bisa saja terjadi jika saya mau. Mempertanyakan apa jadinya jika waktu itu, saya mengambil kesempatan tersebut.
I'm lost.
My mind keep telling me that I belong somewhere else. It's whispering to me how life would be if I'm not here.
It hurts to stay somewhere you don't belong. It really hurts to always hear such a painful words within your heart.
I'm really lost.
It's almost 2015, and I still can't find the right path to my home.
